Updated: Oct 3, 2021
I've been eager to jump back on for a while now.
It's been a pretty full on and to be honest quite a difficult few months due to one reason or another. There's been highs and lows, but we dust ourselves down and keep rolling with the punches. There's been a lot to deal with.......first off with me being extremely unwell. At the time I didn't know what was wrong with me, it was like a really bad cold/flu but as i have bad asthma, this was really bad too. Thousands of things went through my mind as I'd not been as sick as I'd been for a very very long time. It felt like I couldn't function. I couldn't eat, sleep, lay down, I was like a zombie.
I physically couldn't work, and for those that know me, know that this is not me!!!! I hadn't had a day of sick for years and years!
I initially thought it was covid but kept getting negative results. As those close to me have had covid, my symptoms were nothinh like it, and I was getting increasingly worried.
I couldn't physically see my GP as I couldn't get an appointment. I kept getting told by the receptionist that I should call 111 or present at A&E. I contacted 111 various times and was prescribed antibiotics twice for a chest infection, but I wasn't getting any better and also my asthma also wasn't getting any better.
Night after night, I wasn't sleeping because I literally couldn't breathe. Poor hubs would stay up to check that I was ok. Then when I was going to be prescribed another course of antibiotics but I was told that I have in fact pneumonia. If i was able to see a GP in the first place i wouldn't have got so bad!! This threw me for six, but it also made a lot of sense. I was so unwell for a long while and just couldn't shake it off. I was forcing myself to do my day-to-day, but still felt really unwell. After another course of medication, I am finally feeling a lot better, albeit still not 100%, but it will take more than pneumonia to keep me down! There was me being unwell and there were also close family being unwell, as well as a few bereavements too. However I cant fail to mention that I did also have some wonderful celebrations, and also some very precious time with my very precious neice and nephew. With me being so unwell, it was a really tough place to be in. I am so used to spending my life looking after everyone else and doing things for everyone else and am forever running around, but when it comes to me, I find it incredibly hard to look after myself. I really struggle with stopping and putting 'me' first. This is a mindset that I am having to force myself to change. One thing that really hit home when I was unwell is that it is so important for us to look after ourselves. We may be fortunate to be surrounded by loved ones, but ultimately it's our responsibility to look after us. As the saying goes - you can't pour from an empty cup. We need to...... Look after ourselves Look after our mental health Protect our peace Since being so unwell, I am trying to follow this, who's with me?! To say that it's been full on is an understatement!! Amongst all the deep and hard-hitting episodes these last few months, there has been some beautiful times too Sorry folks, for being MIA, I am feeling better and want to get back to me being me! There's an exciting few months ahead for Gifts By Raps.....please stay tuned!